James Van Der Beek'swidow is opening up about her grief three months after the "Dawson's Creek"star's death.
"To say I'm heartbroken is a severe understatement. Words just don't capture what grief is,"Kimberly Van Der Beekwrote in a May 12Instagram post.
The actordiedon Feb. 11 after a battle withcolorectal cancer. He was 48.
James and Kimberly Van Der Beek married in 2010 and hadsix kids together, ranging in age from 4 to 15 years old at the time of his death.
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James Van Der Beek's widow shares update on grief three months after his death
Kimberly Van Der Beek'spostwas accompanied by a carousel of photos of her late husband and the couple's children.
"The comforts of shock have worn off," she wrote. "The reality is settling in... and I miss him. We all miss him."
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She continued: "Yet, there is a different kind of magic in the air. I feel him. I know him more deeply. My conscious connection to God has deepened. The veils of the universe have thinned. And I trust that this is the path me and my family have always been intended to walk."
The 44-year-old expressed gratitude for "the outpouring of support" for the family.
"You all went absolutely above and beyond anything I could have ever expected in supporting us and honoring James," she wrote. "I am deeply grateful. There is so much more to share here. And in time- I will."
GoFundMe for James Van Der Beek's family surpasses $2.8M
After his death, friends of the couple organized aGoFundMepage to provide financial support to the Van Der Beek family.
The fundraiser had racked up more than$1 million in donationswithin the first day, and is up to more than $2.8 million as of May 13.
"Throughout his illness, the family faced not only emotional challenges but also significant financial strain as they did everything possible to support James and provide for his care," a description on the fundraising page said.
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